Tim 10:10 PM
you know what i hate even more?
Nicole 10:10 PM
i love him
Tim 10:11 PM
no you don’t
Nicole 10:11 PM
baby, baby, baby oooooooh
you can bet i’ve got his cd on my iPod
Tim 10:11 PM
you are really testing our friendship right now
Nicole 10:11 PM
Every night before you fall asleep, give heartfelt thanks for the wonderful day you just had (no matter what kind of day you had). Think about the next day, and intend that it is going to be wonderful. Intend that it is going to be the best day of your life. Intend that it is going to be filled with love and joy. Intend that all good is coming to you and everything is going to flow perfectly, etc. Then when you wake in the morning, BEFORE you get out of bed, again declare your intentions for the day and give deep thanks as though you have received them all. As you do this, you will begin to create your life deliberately, and you will experience firsthand the power that is within you to create the life you want.
Three weeks ago, my semester started up again at school. Throughout the now 6.5 years that I’ve currently been in college, I’ve spent an insane amount of money on books that I would usually end up never reading or rarely using. Once I finally got into a major that I enjoyed (ASL Interpretation), buying books seemed somewhat worth it since I had books I could actually use in the future.
Even with the books being useful, they’re still expensive. Then this nifty little device came out: The Kindle. They sell textbooks for CHEAP. When expressing my monetary concerns to Kevin, we got on topic of the Kindle and how I could get my textbooks there and spend less money. And the best part? I don’t have to carry books to and from class!
I know that Kevin listens to me when I talk because not only does he end up purchasing fantastic gifts for me that I either want or can use, but he’s just a good listener in general and remembers a lot of what I say. So, after that conversation and seeing me apparently pine for other people’s Kindles, he decided to get me one for Valentine’s Day.
You may say “How silly — Valentine’s Day? Why not your birthday? Or Christmas?” Well, my birthday is in November and Christmas is soon after and by that time, I won’t need too many more text books. This year will be the last year that I will actually be purchasing textbooks — HOWEVER, now that I have my nifty Kindle, I can sell my textbooks online and purchase them for less than half the price on the Kindle and still have all of my references in one little compact space ;)
Tomorrow’s plan? Go through my books, find them on the Kindle, save them to my Wish List, and sell my old books! WOOHOO!
Thanks Kevin <3 Can’t wait to start reading more too. I haven’t read a non-textbook since this summer. I have a list of books waiting to be read ;)
Kevin and I headed out to an open house at our reception location. Food, drinks, snacks, desserts.. it was pretty cool. I got to see a lot and imaging our reception. We are at the 8 month (and 4 days) mark. This wedding is coming up FAST.
Well, I am back from Minnesota and feel I need to blog quickly before going to bed.
I started this new job last week. I went in Wednesday after class. I was nervous but excited because I needed a job. Bad. Unfortunately, I don’t like it. The only way I can possibly describe it is uncomfortable and uneasy. Those are the only two words I can use. Have you ever walked into a place or been in a situation where you felt as soon as you got there that you just wanted to go home? But instead, you try to stick it out, convinced that you’re being silly and that this will be fun? And sometimes, you may get lucky. I have come to find that if I have that feeling, going home is the best option because for me, that gut feeling of unease is a sign that this just isn’t going to work out. I’ve learned to listen to this gut feeling over the past 3 years and it’s worked out pretty well anytime I listen to it.
I hate that this is a job I wanted and that it made me uneasy and uncomfortable. The people that work there are strange. I don’t mesh with them. The customers that come in weren’t customers I wanted to help. The information was overwhelming and not at all what I thought I’d be doing. The place just isn’t for me. So, over the next 2 days, all I did was hunt. I’ve applied to numerous places sending out dozens of resumes and applications just trying to get an interview. Trying to get something. I need money. I need a job. But I also don’t want to make my anxiety worse by going to a job that makes me uneasy. I spent 6 hours in that place and had a huge knot in my stomach. I just wanted to go home and cry.
I hate this economy. I didn’t want to come back to Chicago this weekend because in Minnesota, I could forget about everything going on here. To be honest, things that go on around here aren’t the happiest moments of my life. With the exception of my friends and Kevin, there isn’t much here for me. If I didn’t have either of those two things, I think it’s easy to say that I would be extremely unhappy (to put it nicely). Numerous times, I’ve considered telling Kevin to pack his things and move to Minnesota with me. I’d transfer to St. Catherine’s and we could live with his parents for awhile. But Kevin couldn’t find a job in Minnesota when he lived there… and I know he hasn’t been searching for jobs there recently. And I really don’t want to leave my friends at Columbia — I just want to graduate.
Speaking of Kevin, I have to tell you that today I realized a major personality trait about Kevin that made me love him 100000x more than I already do (which is already a lot). It’s one that I know existed but until today, I suppose I hadn’t really thought much about it because I just knew it was there and that was enough.
Kevin doesn’t judge me for who I am. No matter what I say or do, he still loves me for me. He accepts what I think, what I say, how I feel, without passing any judgements. When I whine to him about how I feel about this job, he doesn’t tell me to suck it up and go anyway because money is more important. He told me to avoid it and find something better. He told me to not worry about it because things would work themselves out. He basically told me that everything would be okay without judging me for wanting to turn down a job, for having to take care of me, even though we need money, my well-being is more important than money…
Kevin doesn’t pass judgement on me. He doesn’t hold a grudge against me. He accepts me completely. And that is one of many reasons why I am marrying a wonderful person.
I am so unbelievably grateful to have him. He’s the one person I know I can turn to who can be honest with me without passing judgement on me.
Oh shucks, and here I go tearing up and crying because I can’t believe that for once in my life, I’ve got something that has worked out for me.
Thanks, Kevin… for being you <3